Sunday, July 31, 2016

Trying to get Fit - Week 5

Weight - 151.8

I am still having the worst time with this.
I don't know what it is, and I cannot seem to find a root cause to save my life.

Well, this past week, I was terribly tired throughout most of it. I really couldn't get out of bed for anything. I slept through my alarm most mornings, refusing to get up.
I've also been getting random dizzy spells and I have no idea why, mostly throughout the week. I think I've just been tired without knowing it. I may not be taking such good care of myself as I have been trying to do.

A friend of mine told me that my dizzy spells could be coming from stress, and they do happen a lot when I'm at work, because work is very stressful. I know I got hit hard by one Saturday afternoon while taking some notes.

Today though, I slept for about twelve hours, on and off. I'm feeling very rested but my neck is hurting quiet a lot. I think I must have slept weird at some point. I'm not sure.

Tomorrow I'm doing an 8 to 5 shift, than my usual 11 to 8 because I swapped. I'm going to try and work out after work after running a few errands.
Tuesday, I'm going to a concert with my sister, so I'm going to try and get that in early.

I'm still not giving up. I'm going to start this damn thing at some point.

I started a challenge on Sparkpeople. It's called "Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge." I've been struggling with that too. Mostly because I don't go on every day, and sometimes I forget what tasks I have ahead of me. I have about 4 days to work on at once right now.
The Challenges when they first started them were a little weird, but they revised them and they have a calendar now that I think is available for download, or at least sharing.

So, I have two tasks ahead of me: Starting this damn thing for serious now, and the Sweet Tooth Challenge.

I have a few hours before bed, so I'm sure I can knock some of those things out.

Post up next week! Wish me luck!


"Do I got this? Heck yeah I do!"

Monday, July 25, 2016

I'm Sorry: A Letter to my Heart

I'm sorry for not protecting you.
I'm sorry for letting the mind wander and allowing us to believe in fantasies.
I'm sorry that I never built a wall around you.
I'm sorry for giving you away so freely.
I'm sorry for letting so many people hurt you.
I'm sorry for being so careless.
I'm sorry for not being strong enough for you.

I vow to change for you.
I vow to be stronger for you.
I vow to build a wall around you, protect you.
I vow to be more careful of those who can hold you.
I vow to love and respect you for as long as you beat inside me.
I vow to treasure you, as others should too.

You're my only heart. A special heart.

I'm sorry, but I vow to you.

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Trying to Get Fit - Week 4 - No Progress but it's not going to end here...

Weight - 150.8

So I didn't get much done on my first month unfortunately.
I think the only thing I have been able to do is cook more at least. I haven't been eating junk food or going out as much which is good for my wallet.
Though I can't seem to stay away from sweets to save my life. There is this challenge on Sparkpeople that I tried to start once but unfortunately I never finished it and had to restart it a few times. It's called "The Sweet Tooth Challenge" and it's basically trying to stop your cravings (or calm them down) for sweets. I may need to look back into that but I'm not on Sparkepople very much like I used to be.

I'm going to try again this week. Going to try and work out. I got access to the gym in my new place now, and they have ellipticals which are my favorite machine to work out on. The access is 24 hours as well, so it will make things easy on me.
I really wish I had a different set of workout clothes tho. I may go shopping when I get paid this week. The shorts really get on my nerves because they slide down and when I pull them up...I feel like my butt cheeks are everywhere and no thanks.

I do have another set but I feel like it's more for winter, and I could use some new tennis shoes....
Now I'm rambling.

I'm only hoping that this week I can start it. I've been very good on bogging, because I'm usually terrible at it, but going good so far.

Now if only I could get my ass out of bed and work out...


Monday, July 18, 2016

Trying to get Fit - Week 3 - Still Struggling...but POKEMON GO!!!

Weight - 150.8

Still having a bit of trouble making this all very constant. I'm a bit proud of myself from last week though. I didn't track how much I walked but when I did, it was fun! Mostly playing Pokemon GO. I would go to this park after work for about 30 minutes to an hour and just walk, trying to catch Pokemon and go to the Pokestops.
This game is a blessing for me. I didn't play it much during the weekend though, Saturday I was exhausted and Sunday I was too busy to play.
I'm hoping to get back to it this week! I'm still at level 6 but having a difficult time choosing a team.
I'm almost level 7 though!

I had a difficult time this past week because it was literally hot as fuck in the apartment. Apparently the filter hadn't been changed in awhile, which caused the a/c not to work. It sucked. But once the filter was changed, COOL AIR! I was very happy.

I didn't get much in though, I think for maybe one day. I'm starting to think I want to start out slow instead of 5 days a week straight off. I feel like I need to work myself up to that mostly because I don't want to get out of bed all the time. But at the same time...I want to motivate myself to do the things. The thing: Exercising. It's week 3 and I haven't done much progress.
However, I'll count adding recipes of the food I'm making as something. Right now it's just adding in the movement instead of just eating, but I'll be able to count the calories a little more efficiently now.

I think that's all for now!


Sunday, July 10, 2016

Trying to get Fit - Week 2 - Therapy speak and cleaning

Weight: 151 lbs

Not a lot of progress on Week 2 unfortunately.

I'm a bit disappointed in myself but I'm trying not to be too hard on myself about it.

I saw my therapist on Thursday this past week and discussed how I want to lose weight but I can't seem to get out of bed.
She explained to me that one of the reasons I may be struggling is because I'm saying more, "I can't do this thing..." and should say, "I struggle to do this thing...."

So, it's really just changing what I say to send different energies to the universe.
At this point, it would be "I struggle to get out of bed.", which is indeed the case. As well as, "I struggle to work out."

I'll be trying to go to my therapist more often to work on things like this and some some other issues that I have.

This coming week, which will be week 3, I will be working on getting out of my struggle and actually getting my butt out of bed and doing something.

I cleaned my room today, and dis some productive things to make it look good. I still had boxes filled with things to but on a display/storage case I have. So, right now I'll have some room to work out for a time.
I'm still trying to get adjusted here at the new place, especially with my closet because it is a lot smaller than what I'm used to, and I plan on getting some shelving in there too because it's pretty stuffed.
That's all something for another time and another paycheck.

I hope to take a video of my room when it's all finished. Though, maybe now wouldn't be so bad but I hope I get to put up my posters soon.

Tomorrow is an new day, and tomorrow I'm going to try and work out. I'm going to do my best to get over my struggle!
Going to bed early tonight so I can get to it early tomorrow.


Sunday, July 3, 2016

Trying to get Fit - Week 1

Weight: 149.6

The first week, is the hardest week.

I was having the worst time getting out of bed and getting my sleep schedule re-cycled.
I haven't been tracking my food or exercising just yet.
There's still some things in my room that haven't gotten unpacked.

I really think the hardest part for me on doing this is motivation. Well, I do have motivation but, apparently not enough to get my ass out of bed when my alarm goes off.

I have a basic menu of food that I still haven't put up in Sparkpeople either.

I'm off early tomorrow and should probably get to that.

It's 4th of July, but there doesn't seem to be anything going on.
I could go to the lake and watch the fireworks, but last time it was really hard to do and no idea how the parking will be.
Downtown parking is hard.

I find myself still trying to settle in here in the new place.
There's so much stuff for me to get, like shelves and really settle in but I suppose that is for later.

Not much to say for this blog post considering that I am very sleepy and not much happened as it should have this week. I have to be a bit harder on myself to get things done!!

- Suzie